.random.

.so this post is random. its different thoughts i have had on my mind, and just different events going on through my last couple of weeks, that i havent had time to write about.

(homecoming back in the day...janelle and i doubled with our dates)

.i am missing my high school days, just for the social part. and being around friends all of the time. i am SUPER excited fro janelle to come home this weekend. she is truly my my loyal and faithful girlfriend, and we always seem to have a SUPER fun time together, and have the girl talks needed. its funny....distance has been an issue and we havent stayed in contact as much as we would like...but the last time we were together....i could tell something was up. . . she said nothing...and i said, okay i am here to talk if you need me....and than she rolled over (we were sharing a bed in utah at andrew's house) and just spilled it out about her troubles...it was awesome to know that we are still close even through the distance :) i love that girl.

.i am really missing andrew. however, i am doing so much better knowing how happy he is. i am super happy with knowing he is doing what he wants and how we are both being strengthened through it. i know i have blogged about it a hundred times and probably said the same thing over and over again. i am thankful the Lord knows what i need to hear, and when i need to hear it. i was having a rough couple of days this past week...and i was having dreams of Andrew coming home and telling me he doesn't love me anymore. it was horrible. and of course a girl always worries about "what if". i got a letter from andrew. he talked about how much is misses me, how much he loves me and how much i mean to him. and how thankful he is for me and for me being supportive. the part i needed to hear was this,

"you think i am happy now out here now, the happiest day of my life will be when i near across the alter from you and have you as my wife for eternity."

.school. a word that truly scares me. i know once i get into the motion of it, i will be okay. but walking on campus the other day and finally finishing my financial form, and going in this week to look at my schedule and figure things out. i know i have to work EXTRA hard and its going to be CRAZY busy and hectic trying to seal my Associates by the goal I have in mind, I am just hoping after meeting this week with the Education counselor that she will say that my goal is achievable.
.i am excited to be able to spend one more year with holly & kian. even through the headaches i get some days...its worth it. i have really grown attached to holly because we spend so much time together....and i love kian with his sly comments he says every now and than...we dont get to spend that much time together :( ...but when we do we have alot of fun. i am feeling comfortable knowing i have a job for me next year, to be able to pay the bills, for school, and gas.

.life is crazy. but i am still living.i am ready for the summer sun.