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Monday, April 12, 2010

.the next step.

.i am currently writing this, listening to holly play her heart out with her new nanny. she LOVES her, and i think this transition is going to be a bit easier than we all anticipated. which is good. VERY good. i want holly and kian to learn about moving on with life, but also realize that life goes on. but of course know, that i love them like they are my own kids. i am not going to lie, seeing holly move on so easily is hard however. i didnt get my normal "TASHA!" hug this morning. no sitting on my lap, i didnt get a kiss from her, or wanting to play with me, its REALLY hard on me. but i need to think whats good for the kids, and right now, being able to be happy with thier new nanny is good. tomorrow is going to be hard, but hearing holly happy with her new nanny makes things ALOT easier. however, tomorrow is still going to bring tears, and its going to be rough, to let go of these guys. i love these kids SO much.

2 comments:

  1. awwww. THat's how I feel about you! You used to run up to me and say ki ki! now you just are like eh. :)

    loves. You are a big girl on wed! :)

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  2. Tomorrow is going to be hard. Holly Wen is going to miss you so much. I think she had fun today because it was new, but the reality will set in...she will never forget you!

    Thanks for saving me this morning and keeping me from standing out in the cold with my daughter in her pj's!! Woo Hoo...goin' for "mother of the year" award!! ...which I would have to give to you!

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